Monday, September 24, 2007

Emo


Now Playing : "Colors" - Amos Lee

John would tell you that I truly was really emo last night.

I was in a state of panic.

I was freaking out.

I was overreacting (prematurely, is there such a thing?)

I even cried because I was so overwhelmed with all the above.

But mostly, I was awfully scared and fearful.

It ruined the good day I had yesterday, and of course my day today I felt like total shite--at least until it got solved. I like to think of myself as a person who, when faced with something, would act sane enough until I got an answer regarding it.

But last night, I totally went off the deep end. "Calm and collected me" jumped out the window got replaced with a paranoid 15 year old who you'd think saw the end of the world. 

It kinda felt it was going to be the end of the world, actually.
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If what I feared was indeed true.

But it wasn't. THANK GOD! Although I'm adamant in believing that whatever I felt lead to a needed discussion that cleared up what was necessary, I do wish that I hadn't reacted so explosively. It's just so much stress and I'm sure John was shaking his head as he tried to calm me down. Maybe he thought I acted sorta childishly. Maybe he's kinda right.

But I'm just a big worrywart.

Especially more so if it's about you. 

Darn you and your concentrated potion! :P

(John, I guess the prayer helped as you would definitely remind me later on *wink*)


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